Reflections on Motherhood, 16"x20", Digital Oil Painting, 2022
I got the impression to make this portrait one night holding my little one. I thought I was just capturing a moment of peace so I could remember what holding my baby feels like. Working on this for 10 hours turned into more of an emotional experience than I had anticipated. New things started to stand out to me. Like how I made that blanket in a sewing class with my mom and grandmother (who has now passed). The blanket feels like a symbol of motherhood through the generations. Holding her in the darkness became a reminder of the years of depression I've battled. Seeing the light from ahead reminds me of hope for the future and that peace and love can be found.
To hear more reflections on this story check out this video. The time-lapse of all the marks and moments it took to make this portrait is available below. Enjoy!